White Spaghetti

Haloo ladies and gents, I cooked today a white spaghetti.


  • Spaghetti
  • Coconut milk
  • Mushrooms
  • Garlic
  • Red onion
  • Bagoong
  • Salt
  • Oregano
  • Italian Spices
  • Parmesan Cheese
  • Butter

How to Cook:

  1. Boil the spaghetti noodles on a separate “kaldero”
  2. Dice the garlic, onions and mushrooms
  3. Put butter on heated pan, add garlic and onions until the garlic is golden brown
  4. Add mushrooms, then the coconut milk
  5. Put Parmesan cheese
  6. Put Bagoong
  7. Put salt
  8. Put the Italian spices and oregano
  9. Add the cooked noodles
  10. Let the sauce be absorbed by the noodles by letting it be heated
  11. Add more parmesan
  12. Serve

Yay! So that’s it. I ate the food after I drank soypro in the early morning.

Happy Eating!

Deliberate disobedience

I am just deliberately disobeying my doctor. Sabi niya, wag ko daw sabihin sa iba na nagttake ako ng medications, dahil sa stigma. What’s gonna happen because of what I did?

But, I’m telling this now.

Also, the reason I was really depressed.. Kasi sabi ng isang classmate ko sakin dati. I don’t know if he really is a friend, I’m a false prophet daw. What if I am really a false prophet? Since I told him, na magkakababy kami. I was so obsessed with him, many years ago. Naturn off siya sakin. So he called me a false prophet.

Yun lang. Do you know what happened to the false prophet?

He was thrown to the fires of hell as what I’ve read in the Bible. I don’t know if it is a dangerous thing, reading the bible alone.

Another reason that I was depressed, my girlfriends. My most closest friends. They just left me. Yun lang. Mas grabe yung heartbreak ko with girls than boys. You know.

Tick Tock

When I was still a child, I remembered my lola +Regina. She has a big clock at her house, many years ago. This clock is as tall as a cabinet, I don’t really know the term, but it doesn’t tick whenever the seconds move like normal clocks. It ticks at certain hours only.

Guys, I’ll tell you something…

I am anxious whenever I hear the clock ticking, I feel like “nabibilang na ang araw ko sa mundo”. Hahaha. That’s why, I feel better using electric fan than the aircon, because I can’t hear the ticking clock. The sound of the fan shadows the clock ticking that I have in my room. The sound of my music also shadows the clock ticking.

Anyway, I am so glad today. An unexpected visitor came. So I am counting the days from today, December 8, 2020.

A diplomat princess

I’ll tell you another story..

Do you know how to distinguish what’s a real from a fake princess?

Real princesses are stinky. She’s not even ashamed of her smell. Or I don’t know, maybe she was in disguise. You can’t really tell.

I had a classmate before in college, first year. She was a diplomat from a foreign country, which I won’t tell.

The sad thing is that she wasn’t able to finish first year, because of the Filipino subject that she needs to learn.


I never experienced such humiliation that UP and San Beda gave me.

I failed my epidemiology subject in UP Manila – College of Public Health, last 2016, and got a grade of 5.00. It’s the main reason, I was not able to push through my management study and my comprehensive exam.

I passed all my subjects in San Beda University – College of Medicine, except for Histology, Biochemistry and Neurosciences last 2019 and scored 5.00. It means that it is an outright fail.

They say, hindi na pwede magenroll ulit sa San Beda Medicine, kapag naka fail ka twice.

The first time I studied medicine, I took a leave of absence. (2014)

The second time I studied medicine at San Beda, I failed three subjects. (2019)

Lord, give me strength please.

Humiliate is a verb, an action word from the late Latin humiliatus,

past participle of humiliare, from Latin humilis.

Source: Merriam – Webster (2020)

Telephone Call

Today is October 8 in the year of our Lord 2020.

I feel blessed today. God is real.

I woke up awhile ago… I was thinking of what must I do upon waking up today.

I did not open my cell phone. So, I was not able to have my devotional using my Youversion app, but I sat down and closed my eyes and just talked my thoughts, giving thanks to some cosmic being.

I had trouble really knowing my priorities, with what must I do first.

As a person, how do you prioritize your needs?

So, what I did when I stood up from my bed, I went to my mini kitchen sink. I took my “kaldero”, placed a one cup of rice grains, washed the rice grains twice, then placed water up to the line midway between my distal phalanx and middle phalanx of my middle right finger: some sort of crease in the distal intarphalangeal area and cooked rice using my induction cooker for about 10 minutes.

When the rice boiled, I turned off the cooker. Then, opened it again for about 10 minutes more. Then, I stopped it on it’s 5th minute because the rice doesn’t smell good anymore and it seems like the rice is burnt already. So, I stopped it.

The next thing I did, I cooked my “Lucky me” Chicken flavored noodles. I missed this food. It’s been a very long time since I ate this. Then, I opened my Century tuna can and transferred it in a “lalagyan” (I don’t know the english term.. P.S I’ll search for it).

Then, I prepared my table before eating. I placed a pink placemat on top of my wooden table just intended for one person. I placed water on my transparent plastic glass and put a one sachet of “Refresh” and mixed it as my water. This is my last sachet already, so I need to buy again. Afterwards, I took all of the rice that I cooked and placed it in a fragile plate that can break into pieces if it falls. I placed my “lucky me” noodles in a plastic container and took a spoon and fork. Then, I am thankful that I can eat. I ate all of my food and drank my water.

I was laidback the entire day. I didn’t wash my dishes immediately. I opened my laptop and listened to Lea Salonga’s playlist. Right now, I am listening to Best of Regine Velasquez’ Greatest Hits of 2018.

Before I left my room today, I took a bath. Then, I wore my undergarments, then my gray skirt and blue top, a wristwatch. I put on my eyeglasses. I combed my hair. I put on some essential oil in my face. Tied my hair in a ponytail. I wore my facemask and face shield.

The sandals that I chose today is beige in color. Then, I took my blue body bag and locked my room and went out to go to the Mercury Drugstore along Lacson near Dapitan street. I bought 10 tablets of 200 mg of Amiabel as prescribed by my doctor and facemasks. Then, I went home.

Upon reaching my room, I opened the light switch and opened my electric fan. Then, I sat down and looked at myself in the mirror. I smiled at her. Haha.

Then, I lied down on my bed. After a few minutes, my telephone rang. I wonder who was calling. Nobody calls me lately. So, I stood up and picked up the phone. I heard the voice and I smiled. It was my brother. He called me via long distance from Mindoro. He asked me if how was I. He asked if I already took my medication. I said that I already bought my medicines today. He asked if how many tablets did I buy, so he could monitor. I said, I bought 10. Then, he told me that he had a dream that I did not take my medicine for three days, and truth be told, he’s right. I stopped taking my medicine, but I bought now and I already took half tablet. Our conversation ended in the telephone, when I heard my mom called him. Before I put down the phone, I thanked him for calling and I told him that I love him.

So, thank you for this day.

Pain has a purpose

Pain has a purpose

Suffering helps us develop godly qualities. It makes us more compassionate. It helps us to see how we can reach out to others. It teaches us patience, long-suffering and reliance on God. It tests our faith. Like the refiner’s fire spoken of in the Bible, suffering removes the impurities of the soul.

I saw this posted by a good friend of mine whom I have met when I went to Mt. Pinatubo. Her name is Camille.