A praying friend

The other day, I’ll share to you what I saw and heard from facebook stories. My friend Kimberly Naparota, whom I met at Victory Fort Singles Fellowship was praying and she was crying. Her face was not seen, it was just a recorded voice with subtitles and with a photo of a dove. She said that she was led by the spirit to pray, and it was so heartfelt that she was crying all through out the prayer.

At first, I wondered why she was crying. It somehow struck me after I did something terrible in one of my singing apps. I deleted most of my songs, duets from 2020. I had this bubble in my brain that says, “Okay lang siguro yun, kasi wala namang nakikinig, and songs lang naman yun. It means nothing.” On the day I deleted the songs, I was supposedly on duty, but I was absent.

When I deleted them, I felt nothing.

I told my siblings what I did. I told my mama what I did. She asked me why I deleted them. I don’t know what to reply.

Then I heard this friend pray. What I remembered from her prayer, is that she prayed for Christians to be united and not be complacent and to be bold in sharing Jesus to other people. She prayed for her city too.

I would like to cry with her, but a tear did not fall on my cheeks after her prayer. However, hours later I started feeling dry, clueless and guilty and I cried too. I felt like this terrible thing that I did is really terrible. This is one of my struggles as a Christian, to be consistent in my prayer life. I wish the holy spirit will move me to tears while praying for the people I love and care for and for my friends, and even enemies, and most specially for my country.

I love to have a praying friend.

So, God’s verse from Youversion for today is:

Revelation 21:4

4 He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away.”

ESV

Praying with tears is something that other people who are spiritually led may joyfully experience. But, I believe that praying even without tears may also be done, because our faith is not merely based on emotions and feelings and even situations and circumstances. We test our faith. We just simply talk with a supreme being, praise the creator of heaven and earth, ask for forgiveness of our sins, give thanks to The One who bestows blessings, and possibly say our supplications and requests too.

Turnover

Sabi nila, something’s wrong kapag ambilis ng turnover ng mga tao sa isang institution.

Nasa leadership ba ang problem?

Nasa tao ba?

Nasa empleyado?

Nasa management?

Pero bakit yung ibang hospital or institution, kahit hindi ganun kaganda.. Tumatagal yung mga empleyado?

Nasa pamumuno ba?

At bakit bumabalik balik ang mga tao or pasyente sa ospital na yun?

Nasa doctor ba?

Nasa nurses nakasalalay?

Nasa mga security guard?

Nasa pagkain ba na sineserve ng dietary?

Hmm. Paano mo mapababalik ang pasyente sa ospital? Of course hindi mo naman ipagdadasal na magka-sakit sila. Diba? Hehe.

Dear subscribers

I don’t know kung ano yung mga gusto niyo na isulat ko dito..

I hope you can message me, if you have any comments, suggestions or violent reactions.

I would gladly appreciate it.

Kahit isa na lang ang nagbabasa sa mga sinusulat ko.

I will still say thank you, for spending time to read my nonsensical posts about my thoughts, opinions, and journey.

Thank you again. 🙂

What are dreams made of?

I’m already 30 by now.

Time went by so fast, since I graduated college in year 2011. I didn’t even notice.

When I was young, I’ve been an obedient child. I pleased my parents by studying hard and well. I’ve been doing what others tell me to do for quite some time.

I graduated and passed the nursing licensure exam.

I’ve been fearing failure that’s why I always give my best not to fail.

But, do we attract what we fear? Since, I’ve had a taste of it in Med school and in my MHA.

Time is so precious.

Don’t be like me who wasted a lot of time by not forgiving my mistakes done in the past.

Sometimes, when we feel anger.. we put punishment on ourselves that we can’t project to other people. That’s the reason why other people get sick. Hehe. Unforgiveness and resentment and freedom withheld to enemies.

So, choose to forgive. It sets every crooked lines straight.

I remembered my sister, she told me that she doesn’t like being told what to do. I think we all have experienced this. We don’t like other people telling us how to lead our lives, because we think that we can take the stirring wheel of our ship and navigate it to how and where it should go, that we are in control.

Moreover, I don’t think that I committed a grave sin in the past compared to others. I haven’t had any immoral relations. I did not kill anyone. I just fell obsessively in love many many years ago.

I tortured myself, punished myself by not taking care of myself physically, after being rejected. I grew big, you know. I don’t want to go back to that phase anymore, where I just lost control of myself.

Real love I think, won’t let you experience that. Or I don’t know. It’s horrifying. If I will justify the action, maybe it was a tough love, but then again, I was not used to getting rejections. That’s why.. I broke down into pieces metaphorically.

Although, I believe real love will bring out the best in you and will not put you in that afflictive situation.

Instead of keep on insisting what we want.. Let’s surrender our future to the will of God. I think of God as a heavenly being.. who created the wonderful universe that we live in, the sun, the moon, the stars, the planets, the fishes, the plants and the animals and the people around us.

When I was growing up… I was always told to dream big.

But, dreams? What are dreams made of?

Fear of numbers

Have you ever encountered a person with fear of numbers?

Numerophobia, also known as arithmophobia, is the fear of numbers. There are few different triggers for numerophobia. It is more commonly suffered by children, especially after beginning to take math classes in school. So they would try to avoid doing math at all costs.

I have a theory that maybe some people fear reading the bible too because of the numbers that they see.

When I was in highschool, I am often chosen to represent the school in Math competitions in Iriga City. I was always with Katrin Joy, my best friend. She is more inept with me in Math. Even if I don’t like Math and it makes me anxious even with just the thought of computing; I still studied hard for it. I allotted more time on it compared to my other subjects. That was my secret. I put more time on difficult subjects like Math compared with my other subjects, as far as I can remember.

Furthermore, I’d like to share that there was this one time, my mom gave me a gift. The gift she gave is a book entitled “Inspiration For Every Day” By Lizzie Cornwall of Summersdale Publishers from United Kingdom.

I love that book because of the author’s creativity, also the book has no page numbers. Hahaha! So, if you’d like to remember a page, you need to start from page 1, or simply rely on photographic memory. That is how the book will torture you. However, I am not tortured. I love every page. In every page, she will tell you how to be inspired. I love also how it was crafted and designed. I love the art inside. It’s beautifully compiled.

White Spaghetti

Haloo ladies and gents, I cooked today a white spaghetti.

Ingredients:

  • Spaghetti
  • Coconut milk
  • Mushrooms
  • Garlic
  • Red onion
  • Bagoong
  • Salt
  • Oregano
  • Italian Spices
  • Parmesan Cheese
  • Butter

How to Cook:

  1. Boil the spaghetti noodles on a separate “kaldero”
  2. Dice the garlic, onions and mushrooms
  3. Put butter on heated pan, add garlic and onions until the garlic is golden brown
  4. Add mushrooms, then the coconut milk
  5. Put Parmesan cheese
  6. Put Bagoong
  7. Put salt
  8. Put the Italian spices and oregano
  9. Add the cooked noodles
  10. Let the sauce be absorbed by the noodles by letting it be heated
  11. Add more parmesan
  12. Serve

Yay! So that’s it. I ate the food after I drank soypro in the early morning.

Happy Eating!