And so, here I am again… I’m writing again.. I just can’t contain my thoughts and I just wanna share it here.
I’m a first year medical student of section A of San Beda College of Medicine, the best medical school in Mendiola! Yeah! Finally, I am a medical student already. The long wait is over. Actually, It’s my third month already in my med life. It’s actually hard. Really. You might think of it to be easy, but it’s not!!! Every week, I feel like I’m in the sea water, nearly drowning. I want to swim, but I’m just floating to survive. Ang hirap. Feels like crying. Haha. It’s my first time to have failed exams, which I don’t normally had, because I’m a grade conscious student. Been always at the top of the class and included in the honor rolls, since high school and college. But right now, I’ve actually get kinda used to it already, I can’t always be at the top. And that’s what med is telling me. I’ve experienced failures. Yes! But this is so I’ll be able to learn how to be tough and how to fight. In Med school, you need to learn how to move on fast, because there are still exams that needs to be undertaken. So dapat, move and let go agad, so that the other subjects wouldn’t be compromised. Haha.
Moving on, despite my hardships in med life, I’m actually having fun ironically… Every moment I spend here is an opportunity to learn something new. Most of my classmates are almost 3- 4- 5 years younger than me, and it makes me feel young as well. Haha. But I also had older classmates, one is a father already, the other one had finished 2 courses before med, and some are 26, 27 and 28. And all of us, have this goal in mind, which is to become a physician, to become a bedanmd.
I actually like my school. Though it’s a catholic school, it’s kinda fun being a Bedan. I’m proud of it. lol. It’s a campus of the Hogwarts. Haha. That’s what students from CEU (the school infront of our school at Mendiola) used to say, because the undergrads’ uniform looks like the ones that Harry Potter, Hermione Granger and Ron Weasley wore. Also, there’s a pool inside our school! So happy! I got a chance to swim at it already when I participated the sportsfest during the medweek 2014. And surprisingly, I won! 3 medals! 1st runner up for back stroke and freestyle and champion for butterfly. Shockingly, I won! haha. (I was still overweight when I joined that swimming competition. Haha. I have a picture at fb.)
Every morning, I can see student athletes warming up and working out just to make their bodies fit for the competitions that they will be participating in. Every day, I can see student lawyers and undergrads at our library reviewing, even though they have their own library, some of them still go to the Med’s lib. They are actually very studious and very determined. I like our library as well, the staffs are very kind to us. Another thing that I like about my school is the WIFI! Free WIFI! And also every time we have an exam, we don’t write in papers anymore, we actually answer it in the computers at the laboratory. And it’s a little nervous because, before you actually stand from sitting on your chair, you can actually know already the result of the exam that you’ve taken. Yes. Agad, agad, no prolonging of agony. :))
It’s gotta take PERSEVERANCE and HARDWORK. And DETERMINATION. I know. But mostly, FAITH in GOD!
I’ve named this blog as ‘A Whole New World’ since, I’m having LSS with this song, because we practiced it awhile ago, for the Medical Student’s Summit this coming Saturday and Sunday which is to be held at our school. San Beda will be hosting the big event. And I’m part of the SBCM chorale, I didn’t want to join anymore, but I think I need this outlet from all the stress that I’ve been experiencing. And guess what the other songs that I’ll be singing as well, “Lupang Hinirang, Falling Slowly, A whole new world, The Prayer, and Seasons of love” Haha. (Some of the songs nearly get my eyes teary while I was singing. Haha. But the good thing is, I was able to catch up with how they are supposed to be sung. Grateful.:)) I’m also a volunteer this coming weekend. I’m excited! I don’t know why and at the same time nervous since, it’s been a long time since I’ve stopped singing.
God bless my studies and my coming exams, I hope to pass and if God allows, I hope to excel starting today. I have a lot of grades to run after, seriously need to run after!! I need to FOCUS! And LORD, please as much as possible, close this stupid heart of mine. And keep the key of my heart. Please don’t let anyone steal it!!!! I don’t wanna fall in love anymore! Other than You and Med! I know I’ve been foolish lately, but I pray and ask for Your wisdom! I need to start studying legit for the coming module exams starting tonight.
And LORD, Super thank you!!! For letting our school have a topnotcher in the recent PLE2014, Ate Grace Arviola! (I can still remember when I joined the board ops 2014. It was heart warming and my skin started to have goosebumps, when I was in UE. Sobrang, kakaibang feeling. I feel like I need to study much harder. I would like to take the PLE as well someday and be an MD. But a doctor alumna told us, not to study hard but to study smart) I hope I can do this! Thank you LORD for giving me an inspiration. Thank you for the favor! Thank you for your grace! Thank You for the time that you’ve given me. That In all things GOD may be glorified!
And so this is my song for tonight:
A whole new world.
A whole new world
Don’t you dare close your eyes
A hundred thousand things to see
Hold your breath – it gets better
I’m like a shooting star
I’ve come so far
I can’t go back to where I used to be
A whole new world
Every turn a surprise
With new horizons to pursue
Every moment gets better
I’ll chase them anywhere
There’s time to spare
Let me share this whole new world with You.
… THANK YOU LORD! Mag-aaral po ako ng mabuti starting today. 🙂