Peace in Christ

The peace of God is something that not only surpasses all understanding but exceeds our natural ways. This peace exceeds the natural and causes us to remain calm regardless of our circumstances. It guards the heart. We do not lose our minds, and our hearts beat as it should.

The peace of God orients us and keeps us focused on Christ. The result is peace in the midst of adversity. Problems may continue, and there may not be an exact day or time for how long our situation will be, but our life does not depend on knowing when the difficulties we are going through will end. Our life depends on God. Having the peace of God allows us to stay calm and safe in the midst of trouble.

It does not mean that as Christians, we will not experience hardships anymore, and problems will no longer be part of our lives. The apostle Paul does not teach a gospel as a good luck charm, where everything will be perfect. Those who are with Christ can go through the same struggles as any other person but the difference is Christ, who is the peace of God, produces the effect of life in the spirit. A different reality which surpasses all understanding.

And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:7


How can I keep from singing

I woke up today to attend my online class for my MSN (Master of Science in Nursing) Group Dynamics from 8 am til 10 am. I mixed my Soygreen in a water container and drank it. Then I attended zoom. Our group reported for today and we discussed about verbal, non verbal communication and levels of communication. Our group finished reporting early today. So, our professor doc Mikee Aggari let us leave zoom earlier than 10 am, to prepare for the next class.

Then, at 10 am, I attended class with my classmates for Research and Statistics with Doc Rudy Borromeo. he discussed about the hypothesis on research, and some of my classmates presented on their thesis’ statement of the problem. Thank you God for giving me the strength to attend class.

After the class, I’ve read some devotionals. Then, I sang today for the first time the song with the creator of the song having the code numbers of 4.7.6. in a song app, “How can I keep from singing” by Chris Tomlin.

"How Can I Keep From Singing"

There is an endless song
Echoes in my soul
I hear the music ring

And though the storms may come
I am holding on
To the rock I cling

How can I keep from singing Your praise
How can I ever say enough
How amazing is Your love
How can I keep from shouting Your name
I know I am loved by the King
And it makes my heart want to sing

I will lift my eyes
In the darkest night
For I know my Savior lives

And I will walk with You
Knowing You'll see me through
And sing the songs You give

I can sing in the troubled times
Sing when I win
I can sing when I lose my step
And fall down again
I can sing 'cause You pick me up
Sing 'cause You're there
I can sing 'cause You hear me, Lord
When I call to You in prayer
I can sing with my last breath
Sing for I know
That I'll sing with the angels
And the saints around the throne

Writer(s): Redman Matthew James, Tomlin Christopher D, Cash Edmond Martin

After singing, I had my two water jag containers refilled from the Mansion water store and I ate today a chicken shawarma that I liked and a 2 piece shanghai with rice at Piy Margal Street. Then, I went to Bambang to buy a box of face mask via tricycle with a fare of about P50.00. After that, I decided to just walk from Bambang up to where I stay.

I realized that Bambang is not that far pala. I should have walked towards it na lang. But it’s okay.

Then, I went to the water store to ask their boy to lift my two heavy water container jugs at my room’s outside door of the third floor. Then, I lifted them both inside my room. Then, I read few devotionals again from Nicky Gumbel’s 365 day whole bible for one year. What struck me today from day 143 is this verse:

Praise be to God,

    who has not rejected my prayer

    or withheld his love from me!

Psalm 66:20

The verse above is one of the best verses that reminded me of God’s love for me today. Thank You Lord.

Sometimes, we tend to get so disturbed of our challenges in life, forgetting how good our great God is. Sometimes, we tend to listen to the lies of the enemy but reading God’s word will remind us that God is still sovereign above everything.

I am created to worship the Lord, my Creator, my God. So, how can I keep from singing Your praise, Lord.

Bless the Lord oh my soul. I feel so elated today. God is so good.

Good night. God bless my readers. 🙂

Unfailing Love

My brother woke me up early this morning with a box filled with his personal computer parts on his way to Mindoro. Before he left, he hugged me. Aww. I hugged him back. I’m going to miss him. Solo na naman ako. I feel sad but I know I can do this.

So, what happened today… I’ve read my devotional. Then afterwards, I fell asleep.

I woke up again, I ate my corn kernels from a can and heard for Sunday service online. Then, I went to the self service laundry to wash my clothes. After that, I bought palitaw and an avocado shake.

Upon reaching home, I ironed my uniform for tomorrow. Then, I took a shower and I watched youtube. I’ve read a book on Captivating afterwards. The book is about unveiling the mystery of a woman’s soul. So intriguing.

Then, I listened to some songs. After that, ate a slice of chocolate cake then I cooked my dinner (rice, sardines with tomatoes). Then, I washed my dishes, and drank my E.Excel capsules and my medicine.

Then, I finished filling up some documents that I need to submit at work. Though, I still lack the SSS file. I am also thankful that I have wrote down finally my script on our webinar for next Saturday’s event because I will be the Moderator or the Master of Ceremony. It’s been a long time since I’ve been an MC, so I am very fortunate to be the MC for our webinar in graduate school. Exciting!

So, what I learned today. God is telling me comfortingly with this verse,

“Many sorrows come to the wicked, but unfailing love surrounds those who trust the Lord” Psalms 32:10

This verse reassures me, because I tend to sometimes lose my patience over things and about when will my prayers be answered. However, this is His promise: unfailing love will surround me as long as I trust with the God who created the universe.

I should be happy instead that I am not experiencing those problems that other people are experiencing unfortunately especially those who are married and those who have kids already. I should give thanks all the time that I am spared from those challenges yet.

I still thank God for the life He gave me.

Good night. May we have a good night sleep. Duty again tomorrow.

God bless my readers.


Breaking the fear cycle

Job 42:1-3

“God Does His Job Better Than We Can”

An excerpt from the devotional of Maria Furlough’s Breaking the fear cycle

“Every time I give in to a fearful thought, I am once again taking a bite from the fruit of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil. I am deciding, like Adam and Eve, that God’s reign over my future is not good enough for me; no, I need to tackle it myself. Trouble is, my brain was not created for such a thing. In our finite minds, we cannot comprehend the complexities of our futures. We can calculate all the what-ifs, and so we fear. We fear because ultimately we wonder if we can trust God to do his job well.

Would you be willing, with me, to give God his job back? Would you be willing to try to take one brave and faithful step toward fearless living by taking captive any and all thoughts that fabricate a future we do not yet know will come true?

This is no small thing. I woke up every morning and waged war against my fears of the future. To have any hope of real change. Here are the steps I found helpful:

Step 1: Identify a fear the second it pops into your mind. Ask yourself, Is this thought about something I know to be true right now, or am I trying to tell the future?

Step 2: Talk to yourself. State the fear out loud, write it down, do whatever you need to do to get your brain back into the present moment.

Step 3: Ask yourself, What do I know to be true right now? Sometimes our fears feel so real, we forget they haven’t happened. We need to remind ourselves of reality.

Step 4: Focus on blessings. List all the blessings, big and small, you have in your life at this moment.

Step 5: Name God’s truths. Say God’s promises over and over. Put up verses on your bathroom mirror and kitchen cabinets. There is power in God’s Word.

Overcoming fear is not one of those “yeah, I’ll try to get better at that” things. You have to have a plan of what to do when your brain starts worrying about the future.

What is one fear on your mind today? Take it through the five steps above. How did your perspective change?”

Psalms 139:23-24

🙏 My fear of the future suddenly crept again in my mind. Every time this happens, I feel paralyzed. I need to be reminded that God is sovereign. He holds my future. He holds what is going to happen and I will not foretell how my future is going to manifest because I am just a mere human being. I’m surrendering my future to the Lord. He knows better than me. I know He knows what’s best for everyone. He knows what is in my heart, what I am feeling and everything that I have been thinking of. I pray that God will cover my mind from these fears that I have.

Sometimes, I tend to show that I am brave but the truth is I am scared. I fear commiting the same mistakes that I had in the past. I fear jeopardizing my present and each situation that I am in, because that is what usually happens. Sometimes, I am afraid of so much happiness that I feel like I might get disappointed later on. Sometimes, I fear of being so attached to people that’s why oftentimes I just want to be on my own. Don’t get me wrong, I like my alone time, my time for myself.. But what I don’t like about it is to think that I am responsible for everything I do, that’s why I fear commiting mistakes. I am not perfect, but I don’t like the feeling of disappointing people that I love and care for, maybe that’s the reason why I feel this way.

Sometimes, I have this sudden outbursts of anxiety whenever I feel overwhelmed. I surrender this to God.

My God, He knows best. God loves me. I am owned by God. I am His child. I am on His side. I am worthy of love. I am victorious against the lies of the enemy. I believe in Jesus name. Amen.

The truth is I am loved by God. He is my shield. He is my friend. He is trustworthy. 🙏

My First RRT

September 3, 2020

Hi! I am nurse Jaea.

I was the incoming nurse for morning shift awhile ago at COvid unit G west of the hospital where I work at. It is my second day of immersion at a progressive care unit usually intended for cardio patients. However, due to the pandemic, it became a progressive unit for Covid positive patients.

I have never had any code blue nor RRT as the bedside nurse within my entire nursing career. But then, I was assigned and immersed at G west, where I can most of the time hear code blues and RRT announcements.

I was donning on my bunny suit, preparing for duty when the announcer said, “RRT G West”. I was anxious. My stomach felt uneased as I approached the station.

I don’t know what to do. Since I told Maam Val, the nursing unit manager of the area that I have not had any code blues and RRT before, I felt like the charge nurse will assign me to the patient, so that I would be able to observe. The good thing was that I am still a buddy nurse to my preceptor, Maam Ivy Jasmin. I am so amazed with my preceptor awhile ago. I witnessed how she talked to the patient and calmed the patient by ‘whistling breaths’ and how the equipment needed were prepared. I tried to help. But I was frozen. I don’t know how should the process go. The other nurses were helping us too. Thank God.

While preparing, there is the presence of the respiratory therapist too who maneuvered the machine (I forgot the term), where the patient was hooked to breathe oxygen. There was a plastic drape on top of the patient from the Operating Room or delivery room? Not sure. I witnessed how the Anesthesiology consultant injected via slow IV push Propofol (if I am not mistaken) into the heplock of the patient. The Anesthesiology doctor intubated the patient with a guide machine. Mind you, I was really anxious even though it was just an RRT and not code blue. My anxiety somehow lessened when the Anesthesiology consultant talked to me and when he handed me the posi flush for flushing before he injected propofol.

When I am anxious, sometimes I cannot hear clearly what the person beside me is saying. Do you feel the same? Then, I got back to my senses. I needed to learn about this. So that I would be able to know when it happens again in the future.

I have a different level of anxiety in stressful situations, but then I am learning how to keep myself calm, which was the advice given to me by sir Jay, the Assistant Nursing Unit Manager of the area. “Stay calm” that’s what he texted to me before the day transpired. I am glad and grateful with the presence of my preceptor Ma’am Ivy awhile ago. I know that I still have a lot to learn.

After the patient was intubated, the patient was inserted with nasogastric tube (by MROD). He was inserted with indwelling foley catheter and was hooked with fluids such as Precedex 400 mg (2 vial) in 100 ml NSS and Fentanyl in 50 ml D5W by ma’am Ivy.

The patient was breathing with the use of the machine.

I just observed the RRT, then I was assigned to my other elderly patient that is quite stable enough, I was a buddy to ma’am Val afterwards. She is amazing and assertive. I am amazed that she is already a nursing unit manager at a young age.

While I was with my elderly patient, I told him my name. I said that my name is “Jaea”. His hearing is not quite well, so he validated if my name is “Julia”, because that’s what he heard. Then, I told him again, “No sir, I am Jaea po”. Then he said, “Julia?” Hahaha. Simple joys of being a nurse. I inserted an IV line to him on his left hand and administered a “to start” medication. I am glad that he can eat independently. Then, I asked my patient if he would allow me to pray for him. Then he let me prayed for him before my shift ended. I was worried if he could hear my prayer. I held his right hand and spoke the words, as the spirit led me. After that he said, “Di tayo papabayaan ng Panginoon” (God won’t abandon us). I was touched when he said that to me. I learn from my patients too, you know. Sometimes, I question myself why am I a nurse in the hospital, when it is so difficult..

Just like with my case, I was diagnosed with depressive disorder by the doctor since 2013. Right now, I am stable with low dose medication compared from years ago. Don’t worry, I am cleared by my doctor that I am fit to work. Sometimes, I still feel lonely, especially now that I am living independently in Manila. I needed to realign my thoughts every day, to battle the negativity in my mind. I would read the bible in the morning and in the evening before I sleep, just to be reminded of God’s promises to me. God is faithful forever and ever. I believe. You know, the good thing about being a nurse is that it somehow distracts me from my negativity whenever I enter my patient’s room.

I have not reached the level of an expert nurse yet, but I am hoping and praying to be a nurse who has already mastered the skills that a safe nurse should possess. Every time I commit a mistake, I pray to God to help me accept it all with humility, even when it hurts. If I will evaluate myself, I feel like I have already improved from before. Little by little everyday. Thank you God.

I am learning everyday. It never stops. Battling the unseen war, the unseen enemy. I believe God is with me in this journey. He knows everything: the past, the present and the future.

Good night.

Nahum 1:7 ” The Lord is good, a strong refuge when trouble comes. He is close to those who trust in him”

Trust God to rescue you

It is sometimes very hard to keep trusting in God, especially if things seem to go wrong in your life – with your relationships, work, finances, health or some other situation.

David’s prayer here is an encouragement to cry out to God to rescue you and then to put your trust in God.

In this psalm we see the results of God’s love for you shown supremely through the death of Jesus. The Lord is:

  1. Your refuge
  2. Your rock
  3. Your rescuer

Psalm 31

In you, Lord, I have taken refuge;
    let me never be put to shame;
    deliver me in your righteousness.
Turn your ear to me,
    come quickly to my rescue;
be my rock of refuge,
    a strong fortress to save me.
Since you are my rock and my fortress,
    for the sake of your name lead and guide me.
Keep me free from the trap that is set for me,
    for you are my refuge.
Into your hands I commit my spirit;
    deliver me, Lord, my faithful God.

Those who search will surely find me. 🌸

“I love all who love me. Those who search will surely find me.
Proverbs 8:17 NLT

Here’s what I learned today from reading Proverbs 8. It is our day 5 already of prayer and fasting at church. I have faith that God will answer our prayers in His time.

How can we discern God’s voice amidst the noise we hear? I guess I need to pray fervently. I need to meditate more and practice quick obedience. Most importantly, confess my unconfessed sins to God. I want to be like Elijah, who had an obedient faith and who prayed to God and his prayers were answered as depicted in James 5:16-18.

I hope my prayers are effectual too. I want to know You more God and be intimate with You.

Galatians 1:10

It’s funny how sometimes we are so preoccupied of what people think of us, that’s why it is a dangerous trap to fear people because this will lead to pleasing them of doing what they want rather than doing what Our Heavenly Father wants.

Do not be disheartened not to please people around you, because sooner or later, if you live by pleasing those around you, you will grow tired and weary.

Let’s be brave enough to learn how to say no. If they are really a true friend of yours, they will understand. 🌸 It’s liberating for our souls once we learn how to say a polite no.

For am I now seeking the approval of man, or of God? Or am I trying to please man? If I were still trying to please man, I would not be a servant of Christ.
Galatians 1:10 ESV