God Tools

I have a friend that I met at Heartbeat MD last 2018. Her name is Hope Lanika Bautista. She shared to me the 4SL from God Tools, and which then I downloaded.

A while ago, after our 12 hour night duty. I had a co worker in the Emergency Room, Triage. Her name is Sarah Noynay. She is a nursing assistant. She studied care giving. I shared to her the 4SL Tagalog version from God Tools, just after we ate breakfast from a carinderia somewhere in Dapitan street.

She prayed the prayer of acceptance of Jesus Christ. I am thankful to God for giving me the courage to talk to her the 4SL. It’s terrifying at first yet satisfying eventually, that God is so great. I feel honored that He chose me to be His own and I got to share His love to those around me too.

Thank You Lord.

I got a chance to share too the 4SL with Sir Alking Turla and Sir Danilo Sitoy, our security guards for this night. Thank You God. Amen.

Memo: Recharge

As an introvert, you can notice me quite aloof to people. I don’t feel comfortable with a lot of people interactions, unlike when I was a little younger. I just changed.

If you see me performing dance or sing songs, it’s my way of releasing tension from my body and expressing my feelings. But then again, I’m still learning how to interact with people.

I’ve been hurt a countless times already, that’s why I’ve been guarding my heart for the longest time. If I interact with people, it drains the energy out of me. So, I needed time to recharge and give love to myself by quiet times and doing the things that I love with my artistic side. Though, I’m not claiming to be that good artist. I just try to do art, like sing, dance, write, and paint.

On a side note, sometimes, I wonder if am I really for nursing.

Ilang beses na akong umiyak dahil sa Nursing. Haha! Various emotions and feelings.

I have a cloud in my mind that says, ” Sa gusto ko laging mag short cut, mas napapatagal pa tuloy yung maacomplish yung gusto kong gawin. Sobrang masunurin ko, to the fact na paano naman yung gusto kong gawin? Like can I even decide on my own na gawin ko naman yung gusto ko, without the influence of those around me?”

For the longest time, I just want to do things that I want.

What do you want, Jaea? Recharge! 🙂

Peace in Christ

The peace of God is something that not only surpasses all understanding but exceeds our natural ways. This peace exceeds the natural and causes us to remain calm regardless of our circumstances. It guards the heart. We do not lose our minds, and our hearts beat as it should.

The peace of God orients us and keeps us focused on Christ. The result is peace in the midst of adversity. Problems may continue, and there may not be an exact day or time for how long our situation will be, but our life does not depend on knowing when the difficulties we are going through will end. Our life depends on God. Having the peace of God allows us to stay calm and safe in the midst of trouble.

It does not mean that as Christians, we will not experience hardships anymore, and problems will no longer be part of our lives. The apostle Paul does not teach a gospel as a good luck charm, where everything will be perfect. Those who are with Christ can go through the same struggles as any other person but the difference is Christ, who is the peace of God, produces the effect of life in the spirit. A different reality which surpasses all understanding.

And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:7


My Mentors in Nursing

As you all know, I haven’t had any work experience in Nursing since I graduated in 2011. I just started to work as an employee way back in 2016, meaning I have 5 years gap after I graduated. Mahirap mag-work ng may gap na ganun katagal.

I started my nursing journey at the New Oriental Mindoro Provincial Hospital as an Emergency Room Nurse and OPD Nurse. My mentor that I won’t forget is Sir Jericho or Jex as what others call him. He is really good in intubation and IV insertions, and he is good in dealing with surgery trauma/ ortho cases.

Then in ManilaMed, I can’t remember who my preceptor was and who I shadowed in 7th Extension and 9th Extension. I just remembered my managers that time, Sir Ken and Maam Phen. The nurses who trained us for the Athena program was Maam Kate and Sir Junmar.

In PGH -NICU, the person who trained me in NICU was Maam Magee. She is knowledgeable with newborn care. She taught me how to feed them and how to give their medications.

In St. Luke’s, my preceptor in 3 West Pedia was Maam Anna. who taught me to close the door gently; in 6th Main A – Pulmo Unit was Sir Luigi, who taught me that we have different styles in carrying out the skills, just don’t forget the basic principles in nursing; my mentor in JD-ICU was Maam Sarah; who taught me to be kind to nursing assistants and we can learn a lot from them too; and my PCS manager was Maam Jane, she taught me how trust is important. I stayed in St. Luke’s for 1 year and six months.

While at present in St. Jude, my mentors in Emergency room were: Sir Jonathan, Sir Kriz, Maam Ariane, Sir Gabriel, and Maam Hanna, while my manager is Sir Celsie.

I’ve learned from all of my mentors. Each with different good qualities and skills, and various personalities. They were all great mentors.

If you’ll ask me, bakit hindi ako nagtagal sa mga previous ko na institutions, I have commitment issues. Haha!

But there is a deeper reason why.

Don’t worry, I have no plans in resigning yet at St. Jude. Haha. I still need to rise up to the challenge.

If it’s God’s will, praying to stay at St. Jude for as long as God wants me to stay. Please pray for me. 🙂


Dear Readers,

Did you know, I just realized lately.. how important food is, maliban sa need siya for survival.

Parang Fight or Flight lang.

Kapag naka fight mode ka with your Autonomic Nervous System, iisipin mo pa ba kumain?

I realized, kapag hindi ka kumain, mas madalas yung chances na parati kang magagalit.

Kaya importante to, “Kumain ka na ba?” hahaha.

Paulit -ulit kong naririnig to, kapag galit ka, “Magbilang ka muna ng 1-10, 1-5 or 1-3, saka ka magsalita”.

I’ve learned that phrase from Maam Christine and Maam Liwelyn, both are managers.

Tapos, hindi ka na masyadong galit pakinggan.

One more thing, your self identity is very important.

No one can refute what you say about yourself, because that’s your identity.

Knowledge. Skills. Attitude. Which is the most important?

Some people say, hire people with the attitude, because knowledge and skills can be taught.

Pero yung attitude, mababago ba?

Self introspection:

Alam niyo, hindi naman ako masamang tao. Pero I realized lately, hindi ganun kahaba ang patience ko. Tahimik ako, pero mabilis ako magalit. Dati hindi naman ako ganito. I just changed. Although, I still read the bible. I sometimes pray. It’s a daily struggle for me, to pray consistently. I’m a Christian, but that doesn’t mean that I won’t get angry anymore.

Mas grabe ako magalit after I became a Christian. I just don’t want injustice.