Torn

I want to study. I want to go abroad din. I want to be a C.I. too. Hahaha. Ang dami kong gusto gawin, guys.

I’m so tired.

Hindi ko na alam gagawin ko. Nakakapagod pala kapag walang work. Palamunin sa bahay. My mama doesn’t tell that to me, but I just want to contribute too. I don’t like this feeling. I just want to be productive. So please, mercy.

I was reminded with a saying, an idle mind is the devil’s playground. I need to keep myself busy with goals that’s more specific, measurable, attainable, realistic and time– bounded.

What’s more attainable for me at the moment is my Masteral. Please help me God. I also pray for my work. I also pray for my appointment with my doctor.

Redeem me if St. Luke’s will still give me another chance, or if not, just prepare me for my next workplace.

You know everything that’s boggling my mind, all the mistakes I foolishly did. Pardon me. Thank you for your protection. Amen.