So, If I’m to diagnose myself..
What caused this sickness? This dying spirit?
Hmm.. Maybe, It’s because of not listening to other’s advice? I don’t know.
Nagpabaya ako? My relationship with God was not stable enough?
I let my guard down? Honestly? I’m not sure. My selfishness?
There’s no one to blame but myself. Tuloy tuloy, walang preno. No learnings from the past, so I had to face this catastrophic moment.
I should have never fell for my friend’s crush, or my close friend’s brother. It ruined everything. Pero napipigilan ba yun? It has both cons and pros. I wasn’t able to wait.
Ang dami kong sinayang. Stupid me.
Wrong timing. Wrong decisions.
I should be ashamed of myself. But I’m not. But I should be.
Okay. mag-aaral na ako ng cardio. Marami rami pa tong chapters na to. Now, I’m studying this foolish heart.