A praying friend

The other day, I’ll share to you what I saw and heard from facebook stories. My friend Kimberly Naparota, whom I met at Victory Fort Singles Fellowship was praying and she was crying. Her face was not seen, it was just a recorded voice with subtitles and with a photo of a dove. She said that she was led by the spirit to pray, and it was so heartfelt that she was crying all through out the prayer.

At first, I wondered why she was crying. It somehow struck me after I did something terrible in one of my singing apps. I deleted most of my songs, duets from 2020. I had this bubble in my brain that says, “Okay lang siguro yun, kasi wala namang nakikinig, and songs lang naman yun. It means nothing.” On the day I deleted the songs, I was supposedly on duty, but I was absent.

When I deleted them, I felt nothing.

I told my siblings what I did. I told my mama what I did. She asked me why I deleted them. I don’t know what to reply.

Then I heard this friend pray. What I remembered from her prayer, is that she prayed for Christians to be united and not be complacent and to be bold in sharing Jesus to other people. She prayed for her city too.

I would like to cry with her, but a tear did not fall on my cheeks after her prayer. However, hours later I started feeling dry, clueless and guilty and I cried too. I felt like this terrible thing that I did is really terrible. This is one of my struggles as a Christian, to be consistent in my prayer life. I wish the holy spirit will move me to tears while praying for the people I love and care for and for my friends, and even enemies, and most specially for my country.

I love to have a praying friend.

So, God’s verse from Youversion for today is:

Revelation 21:4

4 He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away.”

ESV

Praying with tears is something that other people who are spiritually led may joyfully experience. But, I believe that praying even without tears may also be done, because our faith is not merely based on emotions and feelings and even situations and circumstances. We test our faith. We just simply talk with a supreme being, praise the creator of heaven and earth, ask for forgiveness of our sins, give thanks to The One who bestows blessings, and possibly say our supplications and requests too.

God Tools

I have a friend that I met at Heartbeat MD last 2018. Her name is Hope Lanika Bautista. She shared to me the 4SL from God Tools, and which then I downloaded.

A while ago, after our 12 hour night duty. I had a co worker in the Emergency Room, Triage. Her name is Sarah Noynay. She is a nursing assistant. She studied care giving. I shared to her the 4SL Tagalog version from God Tools, just after we ate breakfast from a carinderia somewhere in Dapitan street.

She prayed the prayer of acceptance of Jesus Christ. I am thankful to God for giving me the courage to talk to her the 4SL. It’s terrifying at first yet satisfying eventually, that God is so great. I feel honored that He chose me to be His own and I got to share His love to those around me too.

Thank You Lord.

I got a chance to share too the 4SL with Sir Alking Turla and Sir Danilo Sitoy, our security guards for this night. Thank You God. Amen.

Memo: Recharge

As an introvert, you can notice me quite aloof to people. I don’t feel comfortable with a lot of people interactions, unlike when I was a little younger. I just changed.

If you see me performing dance or sing songs, it’s my way of releasing tension from my body and expressing my feelings. But then again, I’m still learning how to interact with people.

I’ve been hurt a countless times already, that’s why I’ve been guarding my heart for the longest time. If I interact with people, it drains the energy out of me. So, I needed time to recharge and give love to myself by quiet times and doing the things that I love with my artistic side. Though, I’m not claiming to be that good artist. I just try to do art, like sing, dance, write, and paint.

On a side note, sometimes, I wonder if am I really for nursing.

Ilang beses na akong umiyak dahil sa Nursing. Haha! Various emotions and feelings.


I have a cloud in my mind that says, ” Sa gusto ko laging mag short cut, mas napapatagal pa tuloy yung maacomplish yung gusto kong gawin. Sobrang masunurin ko, to the fact na paano naman yung gusto kong gawin? Like can I even decide on my own na gawin ko naman yung gusto ko, without the influence of those around me?”

For the longest time, I just want to do things that I want.

What do you want, Jaea? Recharge! 🙂

Peace in Christ

The peace of God is something that not only surpasses all understanding but exceeds our natural ways. This peace exceeds the natural and causes us to remain calm regardless of our circumstances. It guards the heart. We do not lose our minds, and our hearts beat as it should.

The peace of God orients us and keeps us focused on Christ. The result is peace in the midst of adversity. Problems may continue, and there may not be an exact day or time for how long our situation will be, but our life does not depend on knowing when the difficulties we are going through will end. Our life depends on God. Having the peace of God allows us to stay calm and safe in the midst of trouble.

It does not mean that as Christians, we will not experience hardships anymore, and problems will no longer be part of our lives. The apostle Paul does not teach a gospel as a good luck charm, where everything will be perfect. Those who are with Christ can go through the same struggles as any other person but the difference is Christ, who is the peace of God, produces the effect of life in the spirit. A different reality which surpasses all understanding.

And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:7

#DoNotWorry

My Mentors in Nursing

As you all know, I haven’t had any work experience in Nursing since I graduated in 2011. I just started to work as an employee way back in 2016, meaning I have 5 years gap after I graduated. Mahirap mag-work ng may gap na ganun katagal.

I started my nursing journey at the New Oriental Mindoro Provincial Hospital as an Emergency Room Nurse and OPD Nurse. My mentor that I won’t forget is Sir Jericho or Jex as what others call him. He is really good in intubation and IV insertions, and he is good in dealing with surgery trauma/ ortho cases.

Then in ManilaMed, I can’t remember who my preceptor was and who I shadowed in 7th Extension and 9th Extension. I just remembered my managers that time, Sir Ken and Maam Phen. The nurses who trained us for the Athena program was Maam Kate and Sir Junmar.

In PGH -NICU, the person who trained me in NICU was Maam Magee. She is knowledgeable with newborn care. She taught me how to feed them and how to give their medications.

In St. Luke’s, my preceptor in 3 West Pedia was Maam Anna. who taught me to close the door gently; in 6th Main A – Pulmo Unit was Sir Luigi, who taught me that we have different styles in carrying out the skills, just don’t forget the basic principles in nursing; my mentor in JD-ICU was Maam Sarah; who taught me to be kind to nursing assistants and we can learn a lot from them too; and my PCS manager was Maam Jane, she taught me how trust is important. I stayed in St. Luke’s for 1 year and six months.

While at present in St. Jude, my mentors in Emergency room were: Sir Jonathan, Sir Kriz, Maam Ariane, Sir Gabriel, and Maam Hanna, while my manager is Sir Celsie.

I’ve learned from all of my mentors. Each with different good qualities and skills, and various personalities. They were all great mentors.


If you’ll ask me, bakit hindi ako nagtagal sa mga previous ko na institutions, I have commitment issues. Haha!

But there is a deeper reason why.

Don’t worry, I have no plans in resigning yet at St. Jude. Haha. I still need to rise up to the challenge.

If it’s God’s will, praying to stay at St. Jude for as long as God wants me to stay. Please pray for me. 🙂

Attitude

Dear Readers,

Did you know, I just realized lately.. how important food is, maliban sa need siya for survival.

Parang Fight or Flight lang.

Kapag naka fight mode ka with your Autonomic Nervous System, iisipin mo pa ba kumain?

I realized, kapag hindi ka kumain, mas madalas yung chances na parati kang magagalit.

Kaya importante to, “Kumain ka na ba?” hahaha.

Paulit -ulit kong naririnig to, kapag galit ka, “Magbilang ka muna ng 1-10, 1-5 or 1-3, saka ka magsalita”.

I’ve learned that phrase from Maam Christine and Maam Liwelyn, both are managers.

Tapos, hindi ka na masyadong galit pakinggan.

One more thing, your self identity is very important.

No one can refute what you say about yourself, because that’s your identity.

Knowledge. Skills. Attitude. Which is the most important?

Some people say, hire people with the attitude, because knowledge and skills can be taught.

Pero yung attitude, mababago ba?


Self introspection:

Alam niyo, hindi naman ako masamang tao. Pero I realized lately, hindi ganun kahaba ang patience ko. Tahimik ako, pero mabilis ako magalit. Dati hindi naman ako ganito. I just changed. Although, I still read the bible. I sometimes pray. It’s a daily struggle for me, to pray consistently. I’m a Christian, but that doesn’t mean that I won’t get angry anymore.

Mas grabe ako magalit after I became a Christian. I just don’t want injustice.

Turnover

Sabi nila, something’s wrong kapag ambilis ng turnover ng mga tao sa isang institution.

Nasa leadership ba ang problem?

Nasa tao ba?

Nasa empleyado?

Nasa management?

Pero bakit yung ibang hospital or institution, kahit hindi ganun kaganda.. Tumatagal yung mga empleyado?

Nasa pamumuno ba?

At bakit bumabalik balik ang mga tao or pasyente sa ospital na yun?

Nasa doctor ba?

Nasa nurses nakasalalay?

Nasa mga security guard?

Nasa pagkain ba na sineserve ng dietary?

Hmm. Paano mo mapababalik ang pasyente sa ospital? Of course hindi mo naman ipagdadasal na magka-sakit sila. Diba? Hehe.

How can I keep from singing

I woke up today to attend my online class for my MSN (Master of Science in Nursing) Group Dynamics from 8 am til 10 am. I mixed my Soygreen in a water container and drank it. Then I attended zoom. Our group reported for today and we discussed about verbal, non verbal communication and levels of communication. Our group finished reporting early today. So, our professor doc Mikee Aggari let us leave zoom earlier than 10 am, to prepare for the next class.

Then, at 10 am, I attended class with my classmates for Research and Statistics with Doc Rudy Borromeo. he discussed about the hypothesis on research, and some of my classmates presented on their thesis’ statement of the problem. Thank you God for giving me the strength to attend class.

After the class, I’ve read some devotionals. Then, I sang today for the first time the song with the creator of the song having the code numbers of 4.7.6. in a song app, “How can I keep from singing” by Chris Tomlin.

"How Can I Keep From Singing"

There is an endless song
Echoes in my soul
I hear the music ring

And though the storms may come
I am holding on
To the rock I cling

How can I keep from singing Your praise
How can I ever say enough
How amazing is Your love
How can I keep from shouting Your name
I know I am loved by the King
And it makes my heart want to sing

I will lift my eyes
In the darkest night
For I know my Savior lives

And I will walk with You
Knowing You'll see me through
And sing the songs You give

I can sing in the troubled times
Sing when I win
I can sing when I lose my step
And fall down again
I can sing 'cause You pick me up
Sing 'cause You're there
I can sing 'cause You hear me, Lord
When I call to You in prayer
I can sing with my last breath
Sing for I know
That I'll sing with the angels
And the saints around the throne

Writer(s): Redman Matthew James, Tomlin Christopher D, Cash Edmond Martin

After singing, I had my two water jag containers refilled from the Mansion water store and I ate today a chicken shawarma that I liked and a 2 piece shanghai with rice at Piy Margal Street. Then, I went to Bambang to buy a box of face mask via tricycle with a fare of about P50.00. After that, I decided to just walk from Bambang up to where I stay.

I realized that Bambang is not that far pala. I should have walked towards it na lang. But it’s okay.

Then, I went to the water store to ask their boy to lift my two heavy water container jugs at my room’s outside door of the third floor. Then, I lifted them both inside my room. Then, I read few devotionals again from Nicky Gumbel’s 365 day whole bible for one year. What struck me today from day 143 is this verse:

Praise be to God,

    who has not rejected my prayer

    or withheld his love from me!

Psalm 66:20

The verse above is one of the best verses that reminded me of God’s love for me today. Thank You Lord.

Sometimes, we tend to get so disturbed of our challenges in life, forgetting how good our great God is. Sometimes, we tend to listen to the lies of the enemy but reading God’s word will remind us that God is still sovereign above everything.

I am created to worship the Lord, my Creator, my God. So, how can I keep from singing Your praise, Lord.

Bless the Lord oh my soul. I feel so elated today. God is so good.

Good night. God bless my readers. 🙂

Hyperventilation

Hyperventilation is rapid or deep breathing, usually caused by anxiety or panic. This overbreathing, as it is sometimes called, may actually leave you feeling breathless. When you breathe, you inhale oxygen and exhale carbon dioxide.

The normal Respiratory Rate (RR) is 12 – 20 cpm.

In a worse case scenario, hyperventilation may result in to a Respiratory alkalosis which occurs when you breathe too fast or too deep and carbon dioxide levels drop too low. This causes the pH of the blood to rise and become too alkaline.

Blood pH: 7.35-7.45

Blood is normally slightly basic, with a normal pH range of 7.35 to 7.45. Usually the body maintains the pH of blood close to 7.40.

ROME: Respiratory= Opposite: · pH is high, PCO2 is down (Alkalosis). pH is low, PCO2 is up (Acidosis). Metabolic= Equal: · pH is high, HCO3 is high (Alkalosis). pH is low, HCO3 is low (Acidosis). [ACID BASE BALANCE]

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Scene at the ER: The other day, I had a patient in the ER, she is a teenager, running for honors. Ma’am Michiku the nurse assistant assessed her vital signs. She was sent to the ER because she was hyperventilating and crying. She was given a brown bag to somehow control her breathing and to calm her down. Sir Jonathan secured the brown bag in her face with a micropore. There were no medications given, just the brown bag. She was in a high fowler’s position. Upon interview, I learned that she was making an assignment or project I think, and she was not able to finish it before the deadline, that’s why she hyperventilated. She was with her mother, a highschool teacher.

Within an hour she was feeling well already, her heart rate stabilized, and her respiratory rate became stable too. Then she was discharged.


When I was younger, I did not ask my parents to send me to a hospital for the reason that I was not able to finish an assignment. I do things and submit them on time. However, when I grew a little older, I somehow wished I can also tell my professor in grad school that I am not feeling well, so I cannot join the class. I am planning not to enter zoom class tomorrow. Haha. Because, I haven’t finished my introduction yet for my thesis.

But, I realized that to be given a responsibility to finish a requirement is inevitable. I need to finish this already.

I was wondering if I should pursue my thesis on Covid 19.

My title is “Looking beyond the lens of caring for Covid 19 patients: a phenomenological study”

Sounds scholarly. It’s a qualitative study. hehe. Kaya ko ba ito? hahahuhu.

Note: Prioritization of needs, Jaea.

Sige, sleep ka na muna, then gising na lang ng maaga. You can do it, Jaea. You are loved, love. Aja!

Dream Catcher

Alam ko, na iba’t iba tayo ng dreams sa buhay.

Ang success para sa isa ay hindi depinisyon ng success sa iba.

Nakikinig ka naman sa payo ng iba sayo.

Pero, paano kung iba yung gusto mong gawin?

We can’t please everyone.

So, paano na?

Iniisip ko, saan ba ako nagkamali?

Bakit gulong gulo ang isip ko?

Ano ba ang gusto kong maging talaga?

Naiimpluwensyahan ako ng mga tao sa paligid ko.

I pray to God to reveal His purpose for me in this life.

Desperately, I’m seeking God’s will for me.

Thank You God for everything.